Sometimes you don't find peace, sometimes peace finds you.

These past 2 weeks have been mega stress time for me.
Things have blown up in my face that I was neither prepared for nor wanted.
And when I could take no more, I did something I don't normally do anymore, because I am a big girl now, and big girls should suck it up, YEAH RIGHT, I turned to my Mommy. Yes people at 30 years old I still call her Mommy.
A name that is earned not just given.
A Mommy loves you no matter what.
Is there for you when you can't even be there for yourself.
A Mommy wants nothing more than to see your smile and hear your laugh and know when they are real or fake and when they are real, they beam.
A Mommy knows how to give a hug better than anyone, and if you are lucky you get to learn how to be a Mommy from your Mommy.
Mommy's listen to you, not just hear you.
So this one is for my Mommy. I love her so much and she has raised not just me but my twin sisters who are 24. To the best of her ability. Yes she messed up here and there, but she did what she thought at that moment was right. And that is all we can ask at the end of the day.

Thank you Mommy and thank you Lindsey and Erin (my sisters, who have also helped to bring peace to my life)

God is Love~Jessica

what worship means to me

Worship to me is when you glorify God to the highest.
It doesn't matter if its just you at the grocery store thanking God for the food
that you are buying
Or you are at church with many, praising him in song.
You can worship anytime of the day. Its our way of showing our love and thanks to
our Lord!

~Jessica

Life is like a snowstorm

I sit at my kitchen table with a hot cup of coffee at peace.

Peace because after the day I had, which included a long trip to the vet and some not so great news. I look around and see my daughter eating an apple, with the skin on I might add, watching a movie that she has been asking to watch for 2 days. It is finally cooler outside, but I have yet to open the windows (maybe I will do that after I post this). My husband is in bed with our pug Milo, who went to the vet today. They are both curled up watching some syfy show that is on. I think he said it is called V. All I know is he is very into it and for some reason so is the pug ha ha.

I pray that my little Milo will be okay and I am willing to do whatever it takes for that to happen. Seeing that my husband and I have one child who is 5 and no others, my dog has become what I call 'mommy's baby' and he knows it. But he also knows this mommy sets boundaries for him and my human baby ;)

I know without a shadow of a doubt that my Lord IS going to get me through all that lay ahead. And with his help I will get through it. Not just about today, but with everything that has been on my mind.

Peace is mine for the taking and I am taking it.

I was thinking the other night:

Life is like a snowstorm, we can't see where it is we are going and sometimes the walk is very hard, but with faith, in the end we are in the warmth of HOME.

God is Great~Jessica

Book Hog

There was a time when I bought books and movies then I found out about this thing called the library. . .

Now I am a book hog, no really I am. I want them all to myself and they aren't even mine! I realized that I could reserve all of my books and movies online for the library and that was a big mistake on their part.

My request list is llllllooooooonnnnnnnggggggg *wink*

I have actually had the computer tell me I can't request anymore! What?! How could this be?!



I am at the library so much now picking up my 'orders' that they look at me like
SHES BAAAACCCCCKKKKKK. But remember this is their fault not mine. They created this monster I have become: the book hog ;)

For those of you out there that are fellow book hogs, and you know who you are, I might have to start a book hog anonymous ha-ha just kidding.

God Bless ~Jessica

The Glad Game

When I used to be really down my bff would make me play the glad game.
You have to name 3 things you are glad about.

Well I am so overwhelmed by the happenings in my life right now that I think I better play that game, Right Now!

1. I am glad I have an awesome healthy child.

2. I am glad that the laundry is almost done.

3. I am glad that we had some wine in the house to help calm my nerves.

I know its just 3 but I wanna add just one more:

4. I am glad that I have my friend back in my husband.

I feel a little better, still very overwhelmed, but a little better.

Homemade never tasted better!

I had to share this recipe with all of you. I made homemade mac & cheese for the first time and I have one question for myself, WHY haven't I made this before? There is a VERY good chance I will never make any other kind again :)

Here is the recipe:

Betty Crocker Macaroni and Cheese

2 cups uncooked elbow macaroni (7 ounces)
1/4 cup butter or margarine
1/4 cup all-purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon pepper
1/4 teaspoon ground mustard
1/4 teaspoon Worcestershire sauce
2 cups milk
2 cups shredded or cubed Cheddar cheese (8 ounces)


1. Heat oven to 350ºF.
2. Cook macaroni as directed on package.
3. While macaroni is cooking, melt butter in 3-quart saucepan over low heat. Stir in flour, salt, pepper, mustard and Worcestershire sauce. Cook over medium low heat, stirring constantly, until mixture is smooth and bubbly; remove from heat. Stir in milk. Heat to boiling, stirring constantly. Boil and stir 1 minute. Stir in cheese. Cook, stirring occasionally, until cheese is melted.
4. Drain macaroni. Gently stir macaroni into cheese sauce. Pour into ungreased 2-quart casserole. Bake uncovered 20 to 25 minutes or until bubbly.

Enjoy ~Jessica

Sometimes Change takes some getting used to.

How do you get a child to act up and be completely out of the norm?

Take them out of a classroom that they LOVE and put them in a new one.

My daughter was doing AWESOME in her kindergarten class. She loved her teacher and met a little girl that I would be okay for her to call her 'best friend' and you know me I don't do that often. The last person I was okay with that was my sweet Timmy. (Heather, my BFF, her son)

So now she is in a new classroom with new kids. Her new teacher is a very nice woman. And I can see my daughter having a great year with her. It will just take some time for her to get used to her.

Her school sends home a notebook/agenda everyday that tells how your child has done.

This is an example of my child's for the past 2 weeks.

Monday (last week) : Gena pulled her pants down in the lunchroom today please talk to her.

(I was like WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is NOT my child! What is going on!

Tuesday (Last week): Gena punched a boy in the stomach today.
(WHAT IS GOING ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)


the rest of the week :)

Today: Gena was screaming in the lunch room today. Please speak with her.

Okay so I have to say my kid is a stubborn, fly by the seat of her pants kind of girl.

BUT THIS IS NOT FUNNY! I finally found out what was going on. She thought if she was bad she could go back to her old class. When I told her otherwise. Tears sprang from her face :( I feel bad for her but I also know enough is enough! So pray for me cause I am trying to be a good mom, and a prayer that comes out of my mouth more than not:Jesus help me to be a good mom.

Just thought I would share. God Bless ~Jessica

Cook A Doodle Do

The Lord's Day, came and went.

I have been under the weather this weekend. AGAIN!

But I did manage to clean up the house some, baked some cookies (the break apart, got a good deal on them at my grocery story) and tried oh so hard to apease my child. Although I dont think that worked out so well today.

My daughter and I read


such a cute book :)