Sometimes Random is a good thing

Oh so random.
This week has been a week that I really could have done without.  You know those kinds where a few things were worth it, but in general it stunk!

I have begun writing daily again. For those of you who don't know I have been writing my first book for 2 years now and I have decided that that amount of time to write a book is not acceptable.  So with 108 pages down and averaging 5 to 10 pages a night its coming together.  Cause lets face it there is no way you can write a steamy romance scene when your 5 year old little girl is saying 'Mommy can I have a drink'  or 'Mommy can you set up the Wii for me.'  So I wait and wait and wait till all is quiet in the house and then I get to it.  Put pen to paper so to speak.
So wish me luck, say a prayer or two that all goes well for me because I might, just might get my work published and I have to say that would be a dream come true.

Also before I forget I have to tell you I have lost a total of 32 pounds since August.  I have been doing the no emotional eating thing and still eating anything and everything I want, just not when I am happy, say, angry or any other emotion I might be experiencing at the moment.  I eat when I am hungry, I  know crazy right!  ha ha. 

Have a wonderful weekend!
God is love~ Jessica

Yes, I am still alive over here

So it's been, what, a month since my last post.
It's not that I haven't wanted to write it's just that I came down with this crud that
has decided that it feels the need to occupy my time as much as possible.
I went to the doctor and got meds for it and now I am having a relaps.

On the good side I have wonderful news!  Since August of 2009 I started with the whole
no emotional eating.  As hard as this may sound to some and for a long time for me too, this whole journey this time around has been great.  And I weighed myself on Monday and the scale says I am down 32 lbs!!!!! I am so happy, although my clothes are not fitting but God blessed me in this area too, a lady where I work said she would be happy to take in my pants for me.  Which is great because I just bought all new clothes in September. 

I hope everyone out there is hanging in there.  And please send your prayers this way I am major need of healing. 

God is love~ Jessica

Sisterly Love

Yesterday, Saturday, I had my twin sisters, yes I said twin,but somehow I think I have said that in earlier posts, over for a 1st annual Valentine's Day brunch.

It was so much fun and the food was great!

My sisters are 6 years younger than me and one is set to be married on May 1st of this year.

The other has been married for 5 years next month and has a 2 1/2 year old little boy that can melt your heart with his meer presence.

So the 5 of us, my daughter included, had a great time.

I served Blueberry French Toast and sausage stuffed crescent rolls along with coffee, 'cause we can't ever forget coffee, unless its a tea party and I am always game for those too!



Also some really great news, since I have stopped emotionally eating back in August, I have lost 27 lbs so far!!! I am so happy, although my clothes are actually falling off and now I need to either take them in or buy new ones or perhaps both :) I eat anything I want but refuse to do it as a prize or as a I'm happy or I'm sad, aka emotionally eating.

I am hoping and praying for a continued success and maybe have an additional 10 pounds off before my sisters wedding. But if it is less or more I am good with either at this point.



Have a wonderful Lord's Day!

Learning

So I am learning about this thing called 'emotional eating'.

I have been researching it because I 'know' I have to be one. Well did I hit the nail on the head! Okay so Now that I know I am one whats next?

Well now I figure out how to deal with it and get through all moments in life without 'emotionally eating' and can I just say it is working.

I have lost 14 pounds in the past 2 weeks.

I never realized that when you are an emotional eater you suppress ALL emotions not just when you are stressed or sad. But when you are happy too!

Something in my brain was telling me I wasn't worthy enough to be sad.

So I ate.

I wasn't worthy enough to be angry. So I ate.

I wasn't worthy enough to be stressed. So I ate.

So you get the picture, but the kicker is this one.

I wasn't worthy enough to be HAPPY!

Of course I am worthy enough to be happy.

Ohhhh but was I wrong, well at least my brain was somehow telling me this.
When I am any of the above including happy, I ate.

And ate,and ate.

Why did I feel the need to reward myself with food. Simple. It was always there for me NO MATTER WHAT!

And I have the excess weight to prove it.

So now I am writing down in a journal: my food, exercise and best of all my feelings.

I am being a conscious eater.

I am not living to eat. I am finally eating to live, and with that my friends, comes a weight loss of 14 pounds.

I am excited to see what is to come. I know that the answers are right from God. And I am so thankful! I have been battling this for too long and I have been about to give up too many times but I never gave up on my faith in God that He would provide me with the answers I sought. And HE has.

God is love ~Jessica