I used to think being a "peon" was a good thing. Then God messed things up, but in a good way.
I no longer want to be the peon anymore. I want to be in control, in charge but not more in charge than God. I want Him to guide my path and for me to have enough sense to follow.
Life is too short to just, be. I want to live life to my fullest. All people have different views on "the fullest" some want to have millions and live in lavish homes and show off all their name brands.
Me, I want to watch my children grow up, not have to pawn them off on someone else to raise them. Which I wouldn't do anyway. But some do. I want to have wisdom to live life the right way. God's way. A house and a career in writing my books would be a plus don't get me wrong. But its time to just let God be in control and stop fighting him on things.
Do you ever notice, that when you throw your hands in the air and say "Okay my Lord, its all you, what do you want me to do, cause I will do it, no matter what it is?" And you mean it. Everything falls right into place. EVERYTHING.
I have been taking a lot of time out of my days to just listen to Him. I am allowing myself to be interrupted. In a good way. When you finally allow yourself to be interrupted by God, amazing things happen. Try it. You wont be disappointed! ~Jess